my mom called me crying today
honestly what are you suppose to do in a situation like that
I was at school
she started crying right when I answered
it scared the shit out of me
she didn’t say anything and sobbed
there was silence
I had no idea what I could say
I was terrified of what was she was going to say
luckily she doesn’t have cancer or anything
but something to do with her health
makes me wonder why God is giving me all the obstacles one after another
like one big blow isn’t enough
just when I thought I could finally take a break
rest
not be worried, stressed, depressed
I had to hold in my tears since I was still at school
these heartbreaking moments
why
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know.
so sick … I hate this … don’t want to work and no mood …. nothing to do …
in the end i’m just going to tell myself im exaggerating all this and it really is no big deal.
I thought I was going to be happy without you. I thought that I was done crying. But seeing you all over again.. i don’t know if i should cry, scream, or punch something. I’ll always exist as nothing to you while you’re still going to be the one who’s always on my mind.
(Source: 021627)
